A Crisis of Maps
When Questioning Faith Opens the Way to Love
For anyone whose map has failed them, and who suspects that what’s on the other side might be better than what they left behind.
Find Your Bearings
What happens when the life you built no longer matches the map you were given? When the beliefs that once made sense leave you disoriented, anxious, or unsure of who you are becoming?
Disorientation is often the first step toward a truer identity. A Crisis of Maps is a companion for that unraveling, written with the clarity of a therapist and the honesty of a fellow traveler.
What You’ll Find Inside
The book moves through three parts:
Deconstruction. How fear-based belief systems get built, why they eventually fail, and what it costs to hold onto them after they stop working.
Reconstruction. Learning to hear a different voice. What secure love actually feels like, and how it heals what shame distorted.
Integration. Healing isn’t linear. What it looks like to stumble forward, to lean into the wave, to live from love instead of fear in ordinary, imperfect daily life.
“You weren’t wrong to trust the map. You just weren’t taught what to do when it fails.”
Who This Book Is For
The person who still has one foot in faith but feels the ground shifting. The one who loved God, and may still, but can’t make the old framework work anymore. The therapist or pastor who keeps meeting people at this exact intersection and wants more language for it. The parent trying to understand what their child is walking through. The one who left entirely and wonders if anything real is still out there.
If you’ve been carrying a map that no longer works, you’re not alone, you’re not broken, you’re just in new territory.
"This book isn't about pushing a particular doctrine. It's about naming what happens when the maps we were given no longer work and exploring what might come next."
A Note for Readers Who Don’t Share My Faith
This book is written from inside a Christian tradition, because that’s the world I came from and the one I still inhabit. But if you’ve stepped away from faith, or never had it, or aren’t sure what you believe, you’re still welcome here.
The wounds this book addresses aren’t exclusive to Christianity. Shame, fear, inherited frameworks that stopped working, the slow work of learning to live from something more honest. These are human experiences. I’ve tried to write toward them in a way that doesn’t require you to share my conclusions.
Several of the people I wrote about in these pages don’t. They’re still in the room, and so are you.
What Readers Are Saying
“I believe this book has something meaningful to offer everyone. It encourages readers to look more closely at the internal “maps” guiding their lives and to consider whether those maps are helping them grow or holding them back.” - Celine, Amazon Review
“There are many points that I would consider eye opening in the book, but they are not told from the perspective of an all knowing sage, rather a fellow traveler walking though complexities of life. Highly recommended..” - Noah, Amazon Review
“Recognizing the deconstruction of self or faith doesn’t mean demolition and that questioning doesn’t reveal doubt but rather illuminates steps of faith toward a God of love. There is an ease to the writing that feels like a conversation with a wise loving friend. It creates space for doubt, healing, and rebuilding” - Brit, Amazon Review
“For anyone who has faced the choice to stay in the Church but abandon honesty OR step away entirely and lose an identity that wasn’t all bad—this book is for you. It’s a balm to the soul, a hopeful invitation to seek out a gentler, more gracious way of existing in this world..” - Mims, Amazon Review
“What jumped out to me the most was what I interpreted as failure was just trying to force navigating new territory with outdated directions. This book helped me realize nothing is wrong with me, I just need to start asking better questions and draw a new map.” - Tara, Amazon Review
